i feel like crying right now. i wanted to shed a tear or two while walking my way home but couldn't get myself to doing it lest people would think i've been laid off or something terrible has happened to me. i'm drowning out my loneliness with nostalgic music (the more it will send me into sentimental mode)...i'm pretending to be ok, yep, having my laptop as companion and the Internet as a means of diversion to escape from it all.
what is this? loneliness has never hit me this hard.
i wanted to watch a movie tonight but nobody seems available at the moment. all is busy with their own worries: office tasks that need to be finished, social life (and love life?) that needs attending to, etc.
i'm alone. this is the reality. i'm tired of depending on myself. i want someone to go with me wherever i want to. i crave long conversations, stimulating ones, never thinking about the time of day.
i need someone to sit beside me in the cinema, walk beside me while shopping (or just plain window shopping), sit across me during mealtimes, give me a hug when i feel that the world is falling all around me, offer cheerful words when i feel like giving up...
wishful thinking...
how long will this last? will any of these come true?
God, i'm so lonely...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
3 comments:
There's no other answer to your misery ~ you know exactly what you need :)
I don't have a lot of friends coz nobody understands how my brain works and nobody can perfectly get on the same wavelength with me other than my ♥u know who♥ He is always there for me as my best friend, my man. I don't need to wait for my unavailable friends to move on with my life. "The purpose of life is a life of purpose" ~ Robert Byrne
*NO PUN INTENDED*
To add to that, if i'm in your shoes, my laptop will be my best friend.
gol, sign sa akong guest book bah. Grabe kaau ka di gyud ka mu visit sa akong blog :))
Post a Comment